Never Have To Think Again
by Dan
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Purple Mountains "All My Happiness is Gone"

4am outburst from the mountain damp with pillows. It's the last memento fit into the tupperware of taste, giving in to giving up. Forty Feelings waterskiing the mobius strip, comforted to revisit my own wake. Shake the same way, and the tears come out different, different spatter pattern on the wall, or when they don't even come at all. The softest word spoken is louder than all my thoughts, music is far louder than all my own thoughts, I'm waiting to think, waiting until it's necessary, come out of retirement for one last thought. Something falls away, is baked off, rots from within, chips away, incrementally, silently, your teeth a scam artist thinking they'll never get caught, behaving like a criminal wanting to get caught.

And then dancing.

Not like, planning on dancing. Just, sudden, car-crash, how-did-i-get-here dancing. All these things I've loved are not nostalgic because they are not past, they are Old and Present. They have worth. Their worthlessness is clear, chipped, haggard. Their beauty is spinning, and toppled. If this is what a body looks like, then here is where Montreal left its mark. Filter by "date modified" and it all blends into one. My heart is melted and dissolved, it's in the air now, catch a whiff.

[out July 12 on Drag City]

Posted by Dan at June 23, 2019 1:23 PM
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Clicking on the STG link is like checking the mailbox out by the road. Days, weeks go by, nada. Then a note!
Nice to read/hear you again, Dan..."All these things I've loved are not nostalgic because they are not past, they are Old and Present. They have worth."
Thanks for posting (this).

Posted by J at June 25, 2019 3:55 PM

fuck, my heart is broken

Posted by alex at August 9, 2019 1:56 AM

This is very unfortunate. RIP David Berman.

Glad to see you are back Dan. You're the original line-up here and always welcome.

Posted by Ghost FM at August 9, 2019 9:02 AM

This blog has been a trusted and warm source of music for me for a shockingly long length of time now, though I haven't visited much in recent years. After hearing the news of David Berman's death, I spent some time over a few days revisiting some of his material, and then tonight it brought me to thinking of this place. A place where music and words intersect in a not unsimilar way to his work. It was fitting and sad to see that the most recent posting was a celebration of his recent release. "All these things I've loved are not nostalgic because they are not past, they are Old and Present." Thank you all so much for all of it.

Posted by Adam at August 9, 2019 10:17 PM

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